Diary of a second wife!

if you read my entry from start to end - then don't start calling me names. It is you who need to be judged and not me. I live the life of a second wife - I'm the caviar he comes looking for when he needs fine dining. But, I'm often left alone - finding solace in my own imagination. But, the waiting is well worth it - he blasts me off everytime he comes ( pun intended ).

Saturday 7 April 2007

I need a man...


(the photo of anita has been deleted - on the advise of a blogger friend.
The above photo is of me.)


I have been having an emotional roller coaster since the divorce. On one side of the swing I celebrated freedom, on the other I was missing 'him'. What about him I was missing, even I don't know for certain.A few male friends from the past got to know about my sudden 'free' status have called to ask me out. But nearly always, no matter how well they tried to disguise, they sounded only interested and keen for a quick shag. Dammit! What is it about Malaysian men which make them smell 'un-attached' cunts from hundreds of miles away?. And what make them to assume that we women are so desperate to have their rods in between our legs?
I have this message to you guys who want to date me for a fuck - Get lost!

Date me if you want to know me, to keep me company, and to share one or two jokes to make me smile and even better - laugh.A man who can tickle my funny bone - is a man who has a good chance to tickle other parts of me.

For now, I find solace in the company of Anita. She and I have done many more things together - the list includes, showering together and on a lazy weekend would even share a bath of deadsea salt together, dinner together, going to movies together, hiking up the Bukit Gasing and ocassional we even sleep until morning together.
In my mood swing, Anita has been there to wipe my tears away.

But I need a man......

12 Comments:

  • At 7 April 2007 at 09:28 , Blogger Ms J said...

    it is anita. your photo file name says so.
    i really suggest - having lost a child thru abortion, that you need to attend grief counselling. your indulgence in anita/desire for a man may not heal your wounds in the long term. please consider it.

     
  • At 8 April 2007 at 00:12 , Blogger GoRgEoUs CeO said...

    nadia darling, pls email me at amelia.success@gmail.com

    I can't seemed to send to your email. It kept boucing back.

    *hugs* Do keep yourself happy ya.

     
  • At 8 April 2007 at 05:37 , Blogger Pookie said...

    nadia, thanks for dropping by the blog and leaving me a line. so very sorry for your loss. ms j is right about counselling. please think about it.

     
  • At 9 April 2007 at 01:55 , Anonymous Anonymous said...

    nadia, i know how you feel when you lost your baby. i lost another last month. been trying for 5 years and have had several miscarriages between 1-3months old. i wanted to disappear forever, not dead but be like a living dead with a vengence.

    i second msJ & pookie's suggestion, go for counselling. it helps. please. no man & his birdie nor woman with her own interest will help you with this. you need to have a real open conversation with yourself and a professional counsellor's help.

    take care, dearie.

     
  • At 9 April 2007 at 03:59 , Anonymous Anonymous said...

    ms j. THANKS. I AM SERIOUSLY THINKING ABT IT. ANYONE KNOW WHERE TO GO?

    SEXYTURTLE. thanks a zillion for ur email. i feel so close to u. thanks. i feel like u cares. i hv tears just knowing that some one cares.

    pookies. thank u too. we hardly know each other. and yet u care too. blogging has been good to me.

    anonymous. THANK YOU. I AM SO SORRY TO HEAR ABT YOUR LOSS..PLS BE STRONG. Dont give up. life is really worth living. it is a matter of people like u n i supporting and caring for one another.

    ALL, I STILL FEEL BLESSED TO HV A HEALTHY BODY ALTHOUGH I AM ALSO A LIVING DEAD AT THIS POINT IN TIME.

    NadiA

     
  • At 9 April 2007 at 13:26 , Blogger gravtkills said...

    just chill and take it ez and just enjoy the company of family and friends...its anita

     
  • At 10 April 2007 at 00:56 , Blogger Ms J said...

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  • At 10 April 2007 at 00:58 , Blogger Ms J said...

    Nadia, you can get all the info you need via the net - its a starting point. and oyu cna ring them anon to ask for info. start with these folks:

    www.befrienders.org.my

    or get info from these people:

    http://www.distel.ca/womlist/countries/malaysia.html

    they can lead you to the group that can help you on your greif. do not feel ashame/ambarras to seek help. Alternatively, get online help from other out of country grief conselling websites. you sound like an intelligent woman, so i know oyu can do this to help yourself.

    and of course, I am here as another samaritan who can help you.

    (sorry, i deleted previous comment - too much typo!)

     
  • At 10 April 2007 at 17:43 , Anonymous Anonymous said...

    hope this helps

    > Stress Reliever # 1
    > Wife: You always carry my photo in your handbag to the office. Why?
    > Hubby: When there is a problem, no matter how impossible, I look at your picture and the problem disappears.
    > Wife: You see, how miraculous and powerful I am for you?
    > Hubby: Yes, I see your picture and say to myself, "What other problem can there be greater than this one?"
    >
    >
    > Stress Reliever # 2
    > Girl: When we get married, I want to share all your worries, troubles and lighten your burden.
    > Boy: It's very kind of you, darling, But I don't have any worries or troubles.
    > Girl: Well that's because we aren't married yet.
    >
    >
    > Stress Reliever # 3
    > Son: Mom, when I was on the bus with Dad this morning, he told me to give up my seat to a lady.
    > Mom: Well, you have done the right thing.
    > Son: But mum, I was sitting on daddy's lap.
    >
    > Stress Reliever # 4
    > Wife to husband: "What's your excuse for coming home at this time of the night?"
    > Husband to wife: "Golfing with friends, my dear."
    > Wife to husband: "What? At 2 am?"
    > Husband to wife: "Yes, We used night clubs."
    >
    >
    > Stress Reliever # 5
    > A newly married man asked his wife, "Would you have married me if my father hadn't left me a fortune?"
    > "Honey," the woman replied sweetly, "I 'd have married you NO MATTER WHO LEFT YOU A FORTUNE"
    >
    >
    > Stress Reliever # 6
    > Father to son after exam: "let me see your report card."
    > Son: "My friend just borrowed it. He wants to scare his parents."
    >
    > Stress Reliever # 7
    > "How was your blind date?" a college student asked her roommate.
    > "Terrible!" the roommate answered. "He showed up in his 1932 Rolls Royce."
    > "Wow! That's a very expensive car. What 's so bad about that?"
    > "He was the original owner."
    >
    >
    > Stress Reliever # 9
    > Doctor to his lady patient: "You look terribly weak and exhausted! Are you having your meals three times a day as I have advised?"
    > Lady replied: "Doctor, I thought you said three males a day."
    >
    >
    > Stress Reliever # 10
    > Interviewer to Millionaire: To whom do you owe your success as a
    > millionaire?"
    > Millionaire: "I owe everything to my wife."
    > Interviewer: "Wow, she must be some woman. What were you before you married her?"
    > Millionaire: "A Billionaire"
    >
    >
    > Stress Reliever # 11
    > Girl to her boyfriend: One kiss and I'll be yours forever.
    > The guy replies: Thanks for the warning.
    >
    >
    > Stress Reliever # 13
    > Man to wife on wedding night: "Are you sure I'm the first man you are
    > sleeping with?"
    > Wife replied: "Of course! honey, I stayed awake with all the others!"
    >
    >
    > Stress Reliever # 14
    > A wife asked her husband: "What do you like most in me - my pretty face or my sexy body?"
    > He looked at her from head to toe and replied: "I like your sense of
    > humour."

     
  • At 10 April 2007 at 21:02 , Blogger Ms J said...

    i do wish some people leaving comment here are more sensitive to what's going on. i dont pretend to speak on behalf of nadia, but she's just lost a baby (an abortion not of her own volition), and a divorce from a 4 year marriage and she's feeling lost. even though she writes explicitly about sex, and post naked pictures, i think she is grieving. posting a couple of jokes in here seem to trivialise her pain. comedy can not make up for her pain.
    mypenisblue - i am sorry for speaking my mind here. nadia, i am sorry if i preemp your thoughts. i think everyone should realise the gravity of nadia's predicament.

    death/divorce/confusion - its no laughing matter

     
  • At 11 April 2007 at 01:44 , Anonymous Anonymous said...

    i second MsJ's comments.

    Comments that trivialise the issue at hand only shows what's on a man's mind ... tsk tsk

     
  • At 11 April 2007 at 14:05 , Anonymous Anonymous said...

    Babe I don't pretend to understand women, I just try to cheer her up...Let me enlighten you on one more... I know it's a joke but it often sums up what men feel about women;

    A man walking along a California beach was deep in prayer. Suddenly,
    the sky clouded above his head and, in a booming voice, the Lord said,
    "Because you have TRIED to be faithful to me in all ways, I will grant
    you one wish."

    The man said, "Build a bridge to Hawaii so I can drive over anytime I
    want."

    The Lord said, "Your request is very materialistic. Think of the
    enormous challenges for that kind of undertaking. The supports
    required to reach the bottom of the Pacific! The concrete and steel it would take! It will nearly exhaust several natural resources. I can do it,
    but it is hard for me to justify your desire for worldly things. Take a
    little more time and think of something that would honor and glorify
    Me."

    The man thought about it for a long time. Finally he said, "Lord, I
    wish that I could understand my wife. I want to know how she feels inside, what she's thinking when she gives me the silent treatment, why she cries, what she means when she says nothing's wrong, and how I can make a woman truly happy."

    The Lord replied, "You want two lanes or four on that bridge?"

     

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